Body on fire

Body on Fire. This statement can have so many meanings, but to me, I can only think of one thing: Endometriosis. A disease so hateful, that it attacks its victims at any time. It does not discriminate, nor does it care that you are slowly dying on the inside, only to pretend that your life is put together on the outside. "You are not crazy." Those are the words my wonderful doctor told me this year. Did I shed a tear after hearing this? Absolutely! I even cried the entire car ride home. I wasn't upset, I was relieved. I finally was diagnosed with Endometriosis. Finally...after approximately 20 years of suffering, I was finally told by my doctor that I was not crazy.

Since I can remember, I have seen dozens of doctors that have tried their very best to silence me and turn me away with every pharmaceutical drug possible. I have tried everything possible, and have exhausted every possible medication out there just to further cover up what was really going on inside my body. Not only has Endometriosis caused me physical pain, it has also disrupted my mental state as well. Has it caused me anxiety? Absolutely. Has it made me feel depressed at times? Damn right. I was beginning to lose hope, as one would feel after what seemed like a lifetime of disappointment.

Since my diagnosis, I can finally create a treatment plan that works for me. I have developed both a gluten and dairy free diet, have a fantastic physiotherapist for pelvic floor physio, and am taking the proper supplements for pain management. I am scheduled to see my doctor in the new year, and until then, waiting on a surgery date. I am truly looking forward to having my body back on track and back to feeling normal again. How does one's body feel as normal? Before I leave off, I want to send a message that, you are not alone. Your pain is real, and your feelings are real. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise, and don't ever let anyone dismiss you as being crazy.

You are not crazy, your body is on fire